They try to justify their demeaning of women and fear of powerful women that they contradict themselves.
Really, I suggest it for any man.
You really need to do some soul searching and maybe get some help because at this point, you're well beyond obsessed with this.
Trust them enough to know they will be never truly harm you, either physically, psychologically or emotionally.
A clean canvas is always the utmost best.
Just like a pill might have helped me in the aforementioned cases; only I feel that it's not really the same thing.